BlaezinCherry

Alright I was planning on adding two more OCs to this so my Secret Cupid could do a couple picture if they wanted but then I realized that I highly doubted that would happen OTL. So here's my list for , cause I don't want it to be late:

Dear Secret Cupid,
I would love love love if you could draw my character
Sorry she's in her adoptable form only, I haven't gotten a chance to draw any real art of her yet ;w; So this image was drawn by Sergle and the original deviation can be found here: fav.me/d5n79ma
She also doesn't have a name... sooo... awkward. :'D

I would like her to be drawn either making chocolate, dressed up in a cute pink lolita Valentine's dress or anything you think would be cute c:
It would also be really really adorable to draw her with one of your OC's either in a romantic or friendly way- she needs new friends or maybe a love interest? :'D Also I know she's nekkid in the picture but you can draw clothes if you so desire c: Or just leave her in her birthday suit ;]

***UPDATE*** (If it's not too late lolol xD)
If you draw her with your own character in a romantic setting, feel free to make it yuri/femslash if you so desire I have no problem with it and I actually like girlxgirl pairings so JUST A NOTE<3

***UPDATE:*** I know hardly anyone cares much, or you don't want to hear sad things, but last night my beautiful, sweet cat Pansy had to be put down. She was very old and weak and struggling to stand up. She wasn't able to eat anymore... She had been bleeding from her mouth too. I wasn't able to be there with her at the vet's office, but I did see her body afterwards when we were burying her. I had been afraid of seeing her like that, but it was actually very comforting. I dissected a cat in Anatomy class recently and it looked rather... demonic and stiff xD I was afraid my last memory of her would be of her eyes rolled back and her feet and legs stretched out like that xD However, when my dad pulled the blankets away she just looked like she was in a very deep sleep. She looked so peaceful and relaxed and happy. But I could see how emaciated she had become because her entire chest was nearly flattened. It was definitely her time, I was just glad that I could spend that last day petting her and hearing her purr, even though she was probably in a lot of pain... I surprisingly did cry a little in the shower that night, even though I didn't feel as sad as I thought I would. It wasn't sudden, we all kind of knew it was coming. But Pansy had been around since the moment I was born... she was 4 years older than me and I find that amazing. I still cannot believe that she had spent 4 more years on this earth than I had at the time she passed away. I will miss her, but of course I still have my two rambunctious puppies to keep me in bright spirits<3 Alright, I'll cut this off here because it's becoming a way bigger ordeal than I had intended xD I try to keep my personal life away from my art on the Internet but I always see all of these people posting their journals about their animals and I feel like mine is just as important as anyone else's should be! Rest in peace Panny, you will be missed greatly<3<3  

My cat Pansy is 22 years old and we think she might be winding down after all of these years... She's been in great health up until recently we've noticed her getting VERY weak and skinny. Sometimes she will just sit there staring off into the distance and wobble a little back and forth... She has developed a tumor on her face as well which is probably why she has lost so much weight because it has to be difficult to chew food. Tonight, of course on New Year's Eve when no veterinarian's offices are open, we find her covered in blood outside. Turns out she was bleeding from her mouth. We don't know if she coughed it up or if it came from inside her mouth. I think she may have bit down on her tumor or something but I don't know :/ Aghhh there was so much blood it was so awful... We tried calling the vet's offices but no answers... Hopefully tomorrow we can get her some soft food instead of that hard stuff that we can feed her every so often so she can actually get some nutrients. Getting rid of the hard food completely is probably a bad idea since her teeth would become unhealthy and fall out xD

Anyways, please pray for her to get better, or send her well wishes or whatever it may be<3 I really really hate the thought of putting her down because she doesn't seem to be in pain... The whole time she was bleeding, we were petting her and she was purring like she was as happy as could be. Maybe she is in too much pain to go on though... I just wish I could talk to her but she's a cat... haha xD

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I am SO SICK of digital art. I am so sick of sitting in front of my computer using the same damn tool drawing the same bland things... I might take a long break from deviantart because I just can't stand feeling obligated to do digital art... I want to paint. I miss painting so much... The smell, the feel of the brush in my hand, the sound of the soft scratching on my canvas, the mixing of colors, the paint all over my hands... Traditional art makes me FEEL. Digital art feels so artificial to me and I can see it so clearly now. I am never happy with my digital art. It's so flat and one dimensional. There's no detail, no love, and no emotion in what I do. I feel like I've wasted to much of my life doing something that isn't going to make me happy and I'm not improving with. The only reason I started digital is because I wanted the popularity... I wanted the fans. But now I realize how unimportant that is because no one loves my art. And I don't blame them, because it sucks. My traditional art also sucks. I want to give up so bad. All I can draw are people without backgrounds or anything. Everything looks the same... I was never a good artist, and I feel like it's too late to ever become one. I've been on Deviantart for a little over 4 years now and only have like 5 active watchers. 70-something in total. That's barely anything.

I'm starting to realize that my art is fucking awful. I feel lied to and cheated by everyone who compliments me. I really appreciate kind words... but I just feel like I can't believe anyone anymore. My art isn't even art anymore. I used to think I was an amazing "artist" and that everyone actually liked my stuff. Maybe I was and maybe they did... but now I don't feel like that anymore. My "art" is crap. I don't know what to do with myself... Every time I tell myself I want to branch out and try to draw something other than people I just don't want to. I just can't bring myself to do it. So what do I do? Do I just take a break from art? Should I try to expand my comfort zone? I don't know. I just don't know...

Sorry for emo-ness xD I'll probably look back on this and be like lolwhut is wrong with me.